Anyway Friends

A little white dress with ABCs all across the front. I remember I came home one evening after a marathon of kids’ parties and whatnot and Little Miss Maya was not quite ready to take her little dress off and get in the bath so we went to her room and hung out on the floor and started talking. And out of nowhere, she told me that when she grew up, she wanted to marry me. So I said, “Why?” I asked her, I said, “Why me?” And she looked up at me and she said, “Because, Daddy, you are my anyway friend.” Now at the time I didn’t know what that meant so Maya had to explain to me that an anyway friend is the one person in your life who, no matter what they say or do, no matter what they’ve been through with you, they love you anyway. So my sincerest hope is that for Maya, Dink, and for Dink, Maya, is that anyway friend. Because no matter how old you are or what your responsibilities, if you have love, real, unconditional love, I think you can make it. So, to my anyway friend and her anyway friend, may you not only make it but enjoy it.

~Sam's Toast in Private Practice, Season 3, Episode 15, "Till Death Do Us Part"~

Complicated

Every time I start blogging, it means that I am either doing my assignment or any work that requires me to sit in front to the computer.

"Are you in love?"

That question caught me by surprise. It is not like I'm deeply in love with someone for the time being but it is just that... Am I suppose to be? Although I have to admit I do have a crush on someone (JAY CHOW) but that doesn't mean I have to be in love... right?

I do answer this kind of question by stating, "I'm concentrating more on my career now" or "I'm still enjoying my single life". Although those statements may sound like I'm just giving excuses for not being attractive to catch any guys attention but it's true (sad... but it's still true).

This does not mean I won't give love a chance... I still won't mind if a tall, dark skin, handsome, macho guy come looking for me (leave me a message if you are interested).

So...
Am I in love?
No.

Looking for love?
Maybe...

In the mean time, I'm just enjoying life as it is.

Disappointed

Crying and feeling sorry for yourself is much easier than doing it for others. If we were to face the problem, we can choose to take advise and motivation from others but at the end of the day it is really up to us to make the final decision to make the trouble go away.

But how different is that for others? Like what they would do for us, we can nag all we want, make jokes to cheer them up, spend more time with them so they won't feel lonely, eat ice cream! We can only do so much to ease YOUR pain but only YOU can choose to change and make YOURSELF feel better.

It hurts to see a friend facing a problem for so long knowing that I can't do anything to make you feel better. So, I'm being selfish and asking you this... Please be strong.